The only way to conquer fear is to face it.

Being human, we all have fears. Things we can't help but be afraid of eventhough we know it is safe. We are still afraid. Like fear of heights. No matter how many strings are tied around us, we still fear it.
Most probably because it is something beyond our comfort zone. Something that no matter how many coaxing by others, if we are not willing to conquer it, there's no way anyone can change our mind about it.
The month of December is known internationally as the World AIDS month. This is the time of the year where volunteers not only try to reach out to those who are facing this struggle but also to reach out to those who believes that knowing nothing is better than knowing and those who are afraid to even speak it's name.
HIV does not discriminate.
Today, 15 of us went as volunteers to Wangsa Walk, A shopping mall somewhere in KL to try to increase awareness within the community. I think the most enlightening thing was to actually listen to the people talk about HIV and to see their response when someone wearing a sandwich board written "I'm HIV positive, Will you hug me?" approach them.
Probably the best thing anyone can learn from here is that fear is a big element that blocks understanding. Don't deny, if someone mentioned that they are HIV positive, eventhough you put on a "It's ok" front, hundred of thoughts are running through your head. You're are wondering "Did I drink anything that person drank," "That person hug me recently, do you think they could be somewhere I could get infected then," "Am I infected already?"
It's alright to fear scared. It's actually normal. But running away is not the solution. Stigmatizing is not the solution. It's facing it, learning about it and trying to help people who might be infected by it.
Sometimes, the best way to learn is to work closely with this people.
Just like heights, as soon as you let go and jump you realize that the only thing holding you back is you.

Today, I learn to conquer my fear. :)
It's almost 2 month plus already that I entered IMU. I had two weeks of orientation that stretches until 10 pm sometimes and things now are pretty hectic for me. Not that we have long hours of lectures, but i'm not adapt to running around so much after 6 months of holiday.

Anyways, let's talk about my Orientation :) The first week, we were place into 12 groups. I was in group 8 and I didn't recognize any familiar names there. We had our first ice breakers the next day but first we had to meet up with out seniors who will be guiding us throughout Orientation. They were call the OO's. (Orientation Officer)
When we first met up with the rest of the group, all of us were pretty quiet. I think we scare the seniors and each other cause we were all so uptight. I was thinking, "Oh no, am I in a group where no one is interested in orientation?" That was when they came back to us with loads of Mcd's for each of us. The seniors took their own initiative to buy food for us, and that was when we warm up to each other.
So the first Orientation game was wet ice-breaker. (Thank you Mei Ying for letting us come over to change in your house and also for the slippers!) While they were setting up the basement carpark for the wet ice breaker, they started us of with the bomb game. If i'm not mistaken we were Vietnam, and the thing is, NOBODY bomb us except for once! so lucky ho? haha
Later they shift us from the lecture theaters to the auditorium where we played another game and eat some food. Haha, it was hilarious and oh so embarasing. I never want to do anything like that again in my life!
Wet ice breaker was the BEST!! I had so much fun with my group :)
The next few days, we had no orientation but we spend almost every day together planning and working on our props and banner :) And then on Friday, we had Indoor treasure Hunt which was fun but scary. Imagine trudging IMU in the dark at night and having seniors popping out and chasing you :) We had to huddle together to get everywhere and i'm serious about the huddling!
Outdoor treasure hunt on Saturday was tiring. I think it's cause we ran all over Bukit Jalil park :) The thing is, I thought they'll be a little tougher on us, but they were quite nice :) Haha, in one game, we had to shield one of our teamates with our body while another person solve 3 maths question. For every question not solved within the given time, they'll pour something on us. Luckily we got it good cause we got a Maths expert :D Haha, but we kena once la, cold Maggi mee XO eekk!!
The next week was PACK! Classes at 8 in the Morning and Orientation till 10 every night! I get back around 11 sometimes. I pratically miss a lot of dinners :) but it was Fun+Extreme! Dress code, Telematch, Variety night and finally finale night :D You don't know what you miss till you feel it ;)


Anyways, let's talk about my Orientation :) The first week, we were place into 12 groups. I was in group 8 and I didn't recognize any familiar names there. We had our first ice breakers the next day but first we had to meet up with out seniors who will be guiding us throughout Orientation. They were call the OO's. (Orientation Officer)
When we first met up with the rest of the group, all of us were pretty quiet. I think we scare the seniors and each other cause we were all so uptight. I was thinking, "Oh no, am I in a group where no one is interested in orientation?" That was when they came back to us with loads of Mcd's for each of us. The seniors took their own initiative to buy food for us, and that was when we warm up to each other.
So the first Orientation game was wet ice-breaker. (Thank you Mei Ying for letting us come over to change in your house and also for the slippers!) While they were setting up the basement carpark for the wet ice breaker, they started us of with the bomb game. If i'm not mistaken we were Vietnam, and the thing is, NOBODY bomb us except for once! so lucky ho? haha
Later they shift us from the lecture theaters to the auditorium where we played another game and eat some food. Haha, it was hilarious and oh so embarasing. I never want to do anything like that again in my life!
Wet ice breaker was the BEST!! I had so much fun with my group :)
The next few days, we had no orientation but we spend almost every day together planning and working on our props and banner :) And then on Friday, we had Indoor treasure Hunt which was fun but scary. Imagine trudging IMU in the dark at night and having seniors popping out and chasing you :) We had to huddle together to get everywhere and i'm serious about the huddling!
Outdoor treasure hunt on Saturday was tiring. I think it's cause we ran all over Bukit Jalil park :) The thing is, I thought they'll be a little tougher on us, but they were quite nice :) Haha, in one game, we had to shield one of our teamates with our body while another person solve 3 maths question. For every question not solved within the given time, they'll pour something on us. Luckily we got it good cause we got a Maths expert :D Haha, but we kena once la, cold Maggi mee XO eekk!!
The next week was PACK! Classes at 8 in the Morning and Orientation till 10 every night! I get back around 11 sometimes. I pratically miss a lot of dinners :) but it was Fun+Extreme! Dress code, Telematch, Variety night and finally finale night :D You don't know what you miss till you feel it ;)

Okies i'm not exactly going to revert back to blogspot :) I'm still going to blog here for old time sake but i'm most probably going to lock up most of my post for lj frinds only kk :)


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Lyrics♥
lying down, underneath the stars
thinking about the way you looked into my eyes and told me how you feel
i dont know if my heart and mind are singing the same tune
need to know coz within me is a mix of fear, a little thrill
can't believe what i feel is real
feelings that's hard to conceal
i would hold you in my arms if you were mine forevermore
you and i♥
i never thought i'd fall for you
the best thing underneath the twinkling stars
my heart desires to be close to you
so you can take my hand and embrace me now
minimizing all my fears and i know
that all my doubts will disappear
there's nothing to conceal
it's real
and i tried, i cant seem to get myself to think of anything but you
i keep falling deeper but it gets sweeter too
everything, every single thing about you touches my heart in a way
i have never felt like this before, it's real
can't believe what i feel is real
feelings that's hard to conceal
i would hold you in my arms if you were mine forevermore
you and i♥
i never thought i'd fall for you
the best thing underneath the twinkling stars
my heart desires to be close to you
so you can take my hand and embrace me now
minimizing all my fears and i know
that all my doubts will disappear
there's nothing to conceal
it's real
can't believe what i feel is real
feelings that's hard to conceal
i would hold you in my arms if you were mine forevermore
you and i♥
i never thought i'd fall for you
the best thing underneath the twinkling stars
my heart desires to be close to you
so you can take my hand and embrace me now
minimizing all my fears and i know
that all my doubts will disappear
there's nothing to conceal
it's real
Hush now don't you cry
There will be a better day
I promise you
We can work it out
But only if you let me know
What's on your mind
Baby, you thought it was forever
Through any kind of weather
But some day you will find what you're searching for
Try again
Never stop believing
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Stumble and fall
Is the heart of it all
When you fall down (down)
Just try again
Smile now, let it go
Hey, you will never be alone
I promise you
If you can't fight the feeling (Oh yeah)
Surrender in your heart
Remember love will set you free
Baby, you thought it was forever
You would always be together
But someday you will find what you're searching for
Try again
Never stop believing
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Stumble and fall
Is the heart of it all
When you fall down (down)
Just try again
Baby, when a heart is crying
Its sometimes feels like dying
The tear drops fall like rain
Baby, you thought it was forever
You would always be together
But someday you will find what you're searching for
Try again (ooh yeah)
Never stop believing (oh no)
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Dont' give up on your love baby)
Try again
( just try again)
Never stop believing
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Stumble and fall
Is the heart of it all
When you fall down
Just try again.. :)
There will be a better day
I promise you
We can work it out
But only if you let me know
What's on your mind
Baby, you thought it was forever
Through any kind of weather
But some day you will find what you're searching for
Try again
Never stop believing
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Stumble and fall
Is the heart of it all
When you fall down (down)
Just try again
Smile now, let it go
Hey, you will never be alone
I promise you
If you can't fight the feeling (Oh yeah)
Surrender in your heart
Remember love will set you free
Baby, you thought it was forever
You would always be together
But someday you will find what you're searching for
Try again
Never stop believing
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Stumble and fall
Is the heart of it all
When you fall down (down)
Just try again
Baby, when a heart is crying
Its sometimes feels like dying
The tear drops fall like rain
Baby, you thought it was forever
You would always be together
But someday you will find what you're searching for
Try again (ooh yeah)
Never stop believing (oh no)
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Dont' give up on your love baby)
Try again
( just try again)
Never stop believing
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Stumble and fall
Is the heart of it all
When you fall down
Just try again.. :)
Haha.. still can't get those pics :) So i'll just write up about it first and then later only post the pics okok!
Apparently my sis tried to "drugged" me by talking to me two nights before the surprise party by talking to me till really, really late.. around 2 to 3a.m. She really expected me to be sleepy the next day, but little does she know, I took a long long nappy then next day, which is pretty unusual since I really seldom take naps. Probably that's my first ever since after STPM. The thing is, instead of "drugging" me, she drugged herself, and that night, she just knock off while I was still lingering around. Hehe.
On Saturday morning, I woke up pretty early and the first thing was, I ran out of the room to ask my mum if she was going to the market. It's becoming a habit since I accompany my mum to market most of the time. She said no, so went back into the room, and lie down but didn't really fall back into sleep. Instead my sis woke up suddenly, after she saw me running out, and then she went down. I contemplated for a while, deciding whether or not I should go down. Since I was already awake, I decided too. So I called my sis and asked her whether she wants the aircond and she came running up bringing along a computer brochure. She started talking to me about the package and in between there were some calls. I didn't really suspect much since her Uni friends do call her, but then another call came, and when she came back into the room and started talking again, I heard my dog bark.. really, really strangely. My sis said it was my dad going out for walk.
After that conversation with my sis, I decided to go back to sleep and dragged the blanket up to cover my head,and then my mum and sis were like, "so late already, go down," and dragged the blanket down and off the aircond. So reluctantly, I got up and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. Then I went into the room and change, but You know what! My sis didn't let me. I went down.. Groggy and Fuzzy.. and my sis ask me to watch Winnie the Pooh playhouse.. So I sat down and stare at the tv, till she call me to follow her, she was holding a newspaper and she dragged me to the family room.. And then I saw a figure crossing to the other side and I was thinking "Yie Hahn?? I thought he was in camp, why is he here?" And then
*Pooot*
*Peeet*
*pooom*
On a beautiful morning, that sounded like War!
First, I was in my pyjamas.
Second, I'm in my pyjamas.
Third, I'm in my PYJAMAS!!!!
Arrghhhh *dies of embarassment*
Sorry for running off. Nobody, NOBODY sees me in my pyjamas! except maybe Veron, and then, my pyjamas was all pink and cute..
But it's really, really sweet of you all. To wake up in the morning and give me a surprise like that. t must be around 8 a.m. right?
Haha, Love you all!! XD
Sorry, blog some more about it later, going to help my mum with some prayers :)
Happy 'Jung' festival.
Apparently my sis tried to "drugged" me by talking to me two nights before the surprise party by talking to me till really, really late.. around 2 to 3a.m. She really expected me to be sleepy the next day, but little does she know, I took a long long nappy then next day, which is pretty unusual since I really seldom take naps. Probably that's my first ever since after STPM. The thing is, instead of "drugging" me, she drugged herself, and that night, she just knock off while I was still lingering around. Hehe.
On Saturday morning, I woke up pretty early and the first thing was, I ran out of the room to ask my mum if she was going to the market. It's becoming a habit since I accompany my mum to market most of the time. She said no, so went back into the room, and lie down but didn't really fall back into sleep. Instead my sis woke up suddenly, after she saw me running out, and then she went down. I contemplated for a while, deciding whether or not I should go down. Since I was already awake, I decided too. So I called my sis and asked her whether she wants the aircond and she came running up bringing along a computer brochure. She started talking to me about the package and in between there were some calls. I didn't really suspect much since her Uni friends do call her, but then another call came, and when she came back into the room and started talking again, I heard my dog bark.. really, really strangely. My sis said it was my dad going out for walk.
After that conversation with my sis, I decided to go back to sleep and dragged the blanket up to cover my head,and then my mum and sis were like, "so late already, go down," and dragged the blanket down and off the aircond. So reluctantly, I got up and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. Then I went into the room and change, but You know what! My sis didn't let me. I went down.. Groggy and Fuzzy.. and my sis ask me to watch Winnie the Pooh playhouse.. So I sat down and stare at the tv, till she call me to follow her, she was holding a newspaper and she dragged me to the family room.. And then I saw a figure crossing to the other side and I was thinking "Yie Hahn?? I thought he was in camp, why is he here?" And then
*Pooot*
*Peeet*
*pooom*
On a beautiful morning, that sounded like War!
First, I was in my pyjamas.
Second, I'm in my pyjamas.
Third, I'm in my PYJAMAS!!!!
Arrghhhh *dies of embarassment*
Sorry for running off. Nobody, NOBODY sees me in my pyjamas! except maybe Veron, and then, my pyjamas was all pink and cute..
But it's really, really sweet of you all. To wake up in the morning and give me a surprise like that. t must be around 8 a.m. right?
Haha, Love you all!! XD
Sorry, blog some more about it later, going to help my mum with some prayers :)
Happy 'Jung' festival.
Alo! Before you ask me why i'm not writing up on the surprise birthday party you guys threw for me, it's cause i'm waiting for Mei Yoong to upload the pics, so I won't need to write about it twice!
Turning a big twenty is pretty amazing :) I'm on the brink of adulthood, not that i'm in much hurry to go there. :) But life being life, we just have to keep moving forward and discover new things right?
On my birthday, my mum woke up to go to market without waking me to drive her, she came home and cook me spaghetti for me and even boiled three red eggs for me! After that, my parents and my sis went out to work and to University, but my sis took me out when she came home from University to eat secret recipe cake and linger around a few cake shops buying cheese tarts! XD And when I got back, my mum cook up a really, really awesome dinner and that's it for that day. :)
So what do I mean by my birthday at Shogun? Haha, well, I was joking about eating at Jogoya for my birthday a few weeks before my birthday, but I didn't really think my family would take it seriously even when my sis asked me "You don't mind somewhere else right? Nearer one?" until on Mother's day, my sis suddenly told me, "May, let's go Shogun for your birthday," All I felt was "Huh? Seriously, i'm just joking!" I mean,look at it this way, it's not exactly expensive, RM 43 per person but it's still money! I was sweating a little cause my sister kinda took offence when I said that maybe we should just not go, she told me I should just accept it as they plan already and she booked us our seats. The next morning though, I was flipping the page of the Metro newspaper when I saw 50% of at Shogun!! XDXD! HEhe, now I don't feel the burden already! The thing is, instead of going on the day of my birthday, I took a rain check to go on Friday afternoon where my sis will be free from Uni. And we went that day, though we reach late, but the food was worth it! It's really, really good!! And the staff were really polite and efficient! ~♥
Chae Yin, remember our plan to eat at Shogun, let's go kk! :)
Anyways, thanks ya, for all the wishes on my birthday, really appreciate it :) The birthday surprise on Saturday! The phone calls a few of you make! So sweet!~♥ The sms-ses, The really beautiful card~♥ And the really sweet present! i'll talk about that next time k! P.s. And the facebook messages~♥ And through offline message on MSN!
Cheers~♥
P.s.s. My mum said I look like an adult in this picture! O^____^O'' wee~
Turning a big twenty is pretty amazing :) I'm on the brink of adulthood, not that i'm in much hurry to go there. :) But life being life, we just have to keep moving forward and discover new things right?
On my birthday, my mum woke up to go to market without waking me to drive her, she came home and cook me spaghetti for me and even boiled three red eggs for me! After that, my parents and my sis went out to work and to University, but my sis took me out when she came home from University to eat secret recipe cake and linger around a few cake shops buying cheese tarts! XD And when I got back, my mum cook up a really, really awesome dinner and that's it for that day. :)
So what do I mean by my birthday at Shogun? Haha, well, I was joking about eating at Jogoya for my birthday a few weeks before my birthday, but I didn't really think my family would take it seriously even when my sis asked me "You don't mind somewhere else right? Nearer one?" until on Mother's day, my sis suddenly told me, "May, let's go Shogun for your birthday," All I felt was "Huh? Seriously, i'm just joking!" I mean,look at it this way, it's not exactly expensive, RM 43 per person but it's still money! I was sweating a little cause my sister kinda took offence when I said that maybe we should just not go, she told me I should just accept it as they plan already and she booked us our seats. The next morning though, I was flipping the page of the Metro newspaper when I saw 50% of at Shogun!! XDXD! HEhe, now I don't feel the burden already! The thing is, instead of going on the day of my birthday, I took a rain check to go on Friday afternoon where my sis will be free from Uni. And we went that day, though we reach late, but the food was worth it! It's really, really good!! And the staff were really polite and efficient! ~♥
Chae Yin, remember our plan to eat at Shogun, let's go kk! :)
Anyways, thanks ya, for all the wishes on my birthday, really appreciate it :) The birthday surprise on Saturday! The phone calls a few of you make! So sweet!~♥ The sms-ses, The really beautiful card~♥ And the really sweet present! i'll talk about that next time k! P.s. And the facebook messages~♥ And through offline message on MSN!
Cheers~♥
P.s.s. My mum said I look like an adult in this picture! O^____^O'' wee~
Famous people who fail remind us that one day our failures might make us famous. :)
Never give up!
Never give up!
You tell me to give up, and show me the door.
You tell me that there's nothing else for me here.
You tell me to stop or risk losing everything.
You tell me that i'm not good enough and laugh at my face.
You say that there's no one else I can turn too, just walk away.
You say "wrong" to me before I can say "right."
You say it's my fate.
I tell you now, I write MY own destiny.
You tell me that there's nothing else for me here.
You tell me to stop or risk losing everything.
You tell me that i'm not good enough and laugh at my face.
You say that there's no one else I can turn too, just walk away.
You say "wrong" to me before I can say "right."
You say it's my fate.
I tell you now, I write MY own destiny.
First up :) Exoro challenge! :) I really want to go for it this year. Something fun and challenging, Amazing race base and best of all, I get to visit Singapore :) it's a team effort though, so i'm going to go scouting soon for potential fun lovers! Keke. Anyways, here's the link if you are interested in forming a team of your own!
Next up, I was surfing the net looking for interesting stuff when I came across this BMW car! It's a concept car meaning that it's just a vision and it's not on sales yet. However, it's amazingly handsome! It's the BMW M1 Homage!

If you know me well, you'll know that I really love BMW cars. I love the eyes! (My version of the headlights) and the sleekness of the body :) Amazingly though, I used to be intimidated by the BMW cars. They look so fierce! That was until I look into it's eyes one evening and fell instantly in love with it. If he was a human being, I would imagine him to be Intimadating, sleek, charismatic and sexy. He would really know how to be a man. That's the type of guy a girl will feel safe being around :)
Imagine, if it was at the back of you and you look through your rear mirror and see this

His eyes would be looking at you with such intensity, you will just want to move out of his way.
And when he speeds up to overtake you, you'll glance to your side to see what he looks like.

And be taken by his sleekness as he zoom past you. Look at the lines! It's so perfect! You can just imagine, if he is a real man, he will be in the handsomest tailored suit that defines his body!
And when he cuts back into the lane, you'll see his back, giving you one final glance before he zooms away.

Looks a little like Megatron from the back!

Haha, hopefully this concept will sooner or later visualize!
Honestly, I don't know much about cars. My dad got me interested in cars when I was younger and occasionally he will pull out some articles for me, notably by Jeremy Clarkson on Sundays :) I understand half what he writes most of the time, but when it comes to talking about specifications, I get lost. Even not withstanding all these specs, most men drives better than women or at least me O-___-O'' and honestly, if you were to compare my driving to any of my guy friends, you'll notice the difference. You can really feel the smoothness in their driving and they are really, really in-tune with the car :)
Man do have an edge over us Women :) They just know this stuff because it's their nature to know :) Haha, i'm not saying women are incapable in this area cause the latest roadster by BMW, the BMW Z4 interior and exterior is designed by women, and it's a real beauty :) but somethings men are just naturally better than women like how women are naturally much more in tune with our surounding and emotions compared to men :) That's why there's Yin and Yang. Every Men needs a Women and every Women needs a Men. :)
By the way, while surfing around, I chance upon the fastest car in the world :)

SSC Ultimate Aero! A beauty isn't it :)
Next up, I was surfing the net looking for interesting stuff when I came across this BMW car! It's a concept car meaning that it's just a vision and it's not on sales yet. However, it's amazingly handsome! It's the BMW M1 Homage!
If you know me well, you'll know that I really love BMW cars. I love the eyes! (My version of the headlights) and the sleekness of the body :) Amazingly though, I used to be intimidated by the BMW cars. They look so fierce! That was until I look into it's eyes one evening and fell instantly in love with it. If he was a human being, I would imagine him to be Intimadating, sleek, charismatic and sexy. He would really know how to be a man. That's the type of guy a girl will feel safe being around :)
Imagine, if it was at the back of you and you look through your rear mirror and see this
His eyes would be looking at you with such intensity, you will just want to move out of his way.
And when he speeds up to overtake you, you'll glance to your side to see what he looks like.
And be taken by his sleekness as he zoom past you. Look at the lines! It's so perfect! You can just imagine, if he is a real man, he will be in the handsomest tailored suit that defines his body!
And when he cuts back into the lane, you'll see his back, giving you one final glance before he zooms away.
Looks a little like Megatron from the back!
Haha, hopefully this concept will sooner or later visualize!
Honestly, I don't know much about cars. My dad got me interested in cars when I was younger and occasionally he will pull out some articles for me, notably by Jeremy Clarkson on Sundays :) I understand half what he writes most of the time, but when it comes to talking about specifications, I get lost. Even not withstanding all these specs, most men drives better than women or at least me O-___-O'' and honestly, if you were to compare my driving to any of my guy friends, you'll notice the difference. You can really feel the smoothness in their driving and they are really, really in-tune with the car :)
Man do have an edge over us Women :) They just know this stuff because it's their nature to know :) Haha, i'm not saying women are incapable in this area cause the latest roadster by BMW, the BMW Z4 interior and exterior is designed by women, and it's a real beauty :) but somethings men are just naturally better than women like how women are naturally much more in tune with our surounding and emotions compared to men :) That's why there's Yin and Yang. Every Men needs a Women and every Women needs a Men. :)
By the way, while surfing around, I chance upon the fastest car in the world :)
SSC Ultimate Aero! A beauty isn't it :)
Yesterday, I put on the Westlife Karaoke VCD and started singing my heart out with my sis using the controller as out mic :)
After a while I turned to my sis and said
Me: You know, I use to dream of marrying Shane~♥
My sis: OMG! So cute!
Ok, I confess, that was not the reaction I thought i'll get from her, I mean I thought she would say
*Imaginary conversation*
Me: You know, I use to dream of marrying Shane~♥
My sis: OMG! Me Too! I use to dream of marrying Brian
*end of imagination*
So it was pretty embarassing!
When I ask her why she didn't think like me, she told me that eventhough she goes "goo goo gaa gaa," over some singers, all she wants to do is know them and be their friends. Her dream was way different from mine. While I was dreaming of a romantic date by the lake with my "idol" then, she was dreaming of going on tour with them! How different can we get! Isn't it a childhood dream for any guys and girls to married their idol? It's not only me right?! O>. <O'' Or else.. it's SUPER embarassing lo..
I mean, I still do it now.. but on a smaller frequency.. The last was Kimi Raikkonen.. Till I found out that he is married.. And speak foul language and it was then my love went flying out the door..
So anyways, at the end of it I decided, it's not just me. I mean, i'm a girl! O^___^O'' wee~
As I was going to take out the VCD I turned to my sister and said
Me: You know, when I found out a while ago that Shane was married I was sad. It's like I can't fulfilled my childhood 'dreams'
My sis: OMG! SO cute!
After a while I turned to my sis and said
Me: You know, I use to dream of marrying Shane~♥
My sis: OMG! So cute!
Ok, I confess, that was not the reaction I thought i'll get from her, I mean I thought she would say
*Imaginary conversation*
Me: You know, I use to dream of marrying Shane~♥
My sis: OMG! Me Too! I use to dream of marrying Brian
*end of imagination*
So it was pretty embarassing!
When I ask her why she didn't think like me, she told me that eventhough she goes "goo goo gaa gaa," over some singers, all she wants to do is know them and be their friends. Her dream was way different from mine. While I was dreaming of a romantic date by the lake with my "idol" then, she was dreaming of going on tour with them! How different can we get! Isn't it a childhood dream for any guys and girls to married their idol? It's not only me right?! O>. <O'' Or else.. it's SUPER embarassing lo..
I mean, I still do it now.. but on a smaller frequency.. The last was Kimi Raikkonen.. Till I found out that he is married.. And speak foul language and it was then my love went flying out the door..
So anyways, at the end of it I decided, it's not just me. I mean, i'm a girl! O^___^O'' wee~
As I was going to take out the VCD I turned to my sister and said
Me: You know, when I found out a while ago that Shane was married I was sad. It's like I can't fulfilled my childhood 'dreams'
My sis: OMG! SO cute!
Sushi!! I ♥ Sushi! Wee~
They have this special promotion at Sushi King anually where all rice base sushi are RM2! Unagi, Salmon, Fish roe, Scallops♥ , Jelly fish! You name it! I know Sushi King is Malaysian-ized but I don't care! It's food and I ♥ to eat!
So, I called up a bunch of them and it was pretty last minute but I didn't have a choice due to certain circumstances ) So there I was with 3 guys, eating sushi at Sushi King in Section 14! Chris, Yie Hahn and Clam :)
I ate 7 plates of sushi, and even then I was pratically forcing myself to eat the last plate cause I really love the scallops! I mean, it's really SWEET!! Really! Don't believe, you MUST go and try it!
And besides the point, I had a donut from Big Apples before that :) It was my breakfast and lunch! That donut was call "THE ALIEN"!! Full of chocolate!! Wee~♥ Yes, yes, I ♥ food! And I don't deny that! Hehe! I'm really looking forward to a buffet at Shogun!
Is a wonder right.. Maybe i'm growing fat.. Passion or Fashion? Well, definitely passion!

I did not take this picture, just a random pic that show most of the things we had that day! Yummy!

Opps, wrong big apple!

BIG APPLE DONUTS! ♥♥♥
Nobody say love can only be given to living things!
They have this special promotion at Sushi King anually where all rice base sushi are RM2! Unagi, Salmon, Fish roe, Scallops♥ , Jelly fish! You name it! I know Sushi King is Malaysian-ized but I don't care! It's food and I ♥ to eat!
So, I called up a bunch of them and it was pretty last minute but I didn't have a choice due to certain circumstances ) So there I was with 3 guys, eating sushi at Sushi King in Section 14! Chris, Yie Hahn and Clam :)
I ate 7 plates of sushi, and even then I was pratically forcing myself to eat the last plate cause I really love the scallops! I mean, it's really SWEET!! Really! Don't believe, you MUST go and try it!
And besides the point, I had a donut from Big Apples before that :) It was my breakfast and lunch! That donut was call "THE ALIEN"!! Full of chocolate!! Wee~♥ Yes, yes, I ♥ food! And I don't deny that! Hehe! I'm really looking forward to a buffet at Shogun!
Is a wonder right.. Maybe i'm growing fat.. Passion or Fashion? Well, definitely passion!
I did not take this picture, just a random pic that show most of the things we had that day! Yummy!
Opps, wrong big apple!
BIG APPLE DONUTS! ♥♥♥
Nobody say love can only be given to living things!
I'm already bored of using the com and i'm still hungry..
Yerr.. O>. <O
Yerr.. O>. <O
I'm currently in IMU hacking into the computer using my sis id and surfing the net O^___^O''
I'm really hungry though, I haven't eaten my lunch yet and it's really cold in here.
Thinking about food but have to wait for my sis until 3.45..
Happy Birthday Hey Ting dearie! I just saw the video on Youtube! Glad you were happy! didn't know why though cause they don't provide sound system here..
While I shall terrorize the computer of IMU, I shall keep you updated unless of death due to hunger!
I'm really hungry though, I haven't eaten my lunch yet and it's really cold in here.
Thinking about food but have to wait for my sis until 3.45..
Happy Birthday Hey Ting dearie! I just saw the video on Youtube! Glad you were happy! didn't know why though cause they don't provide sound system here..
While I shall terrorize the computer of IMU, I shall keep you updated unless of death due to hunger!
That i'm actually being productive :) I help my parents out with their work almost everyday and besides the fact that i'm not doing it for the pay, i'm actually working from home :) So no difference from those working people! (Except the pay)
That I still have eye bags for no apparent reason! :) I mean, I should be getting enough sleep everyday right? Grr.. Why is the side effects taking so long to go away?
That I WANT to watch X-Men! For the Love of Hugh Jackman :):)
The month May has almost all the movies that I want to watch!
That I need to get a job! :) (To fund all my "extra-curricular" activities)
That I still have eye bags for no apparent reason! :) I mean, I should be getting enough sleep everyday right? Grr.. Why is the side effects taking so long to go away?
That I WANT to watch X-Men! For the Love of Hugh Jackman :):)
The month May has almost all the movies that I want to watch!
That I need to get a job! :) (To fund all my "extra-curricular" activities)
...Say it again one more time
those three little words that'll change my life
say it again say "I love you,"
say it today and tomorrow too
say it forever
say that you love me again . . .
This is part of a lyrics by a band, C21 titled "Say it again,"
All of us, have said this three little words before. To me, it's probably the hardest sentence to say, especially to someone I really care about. When I was so much younger, I would write on cards and paper that I love my parents, but somehow it was so much harder to say it outright. I would have to struggle saying them and my face will be flushed. I can't understand why. It's just my family, people that I really care about and Love so much more than anyone and anything in this World, but why do I find it easier to say to my friends and teachers and not my family members?
There's something magical about the word "I Love You." More often than not, I will say it in Chinese. It's so much more easier and I don't have to turn myself into a homegrown tomato. Maybe it's an Asian custom to find it so hard to say it to your parents and the people you love. In that way, I agree that the Western way of expressing themselves is so much better. They don't hesitate to say those three words as if it was just like every other words, but saying that, you can't help to wonder don't they abused it? Why is it so easy for them to say "I Love you," to someone they met just over an hour ago? What is their version of Love? Someone who is really beautiful? Someone they just want to have? or Someone they want to spend the rest of their life with?
I do believe in Love at first sight :) but to say "I love you," just after looking at that person for a few seconds, I don't think so. Sometimes, it gets me thinking, people who can use these words so freely to another person other than their family members, are they for real or are they superficial? It's hard to tell. I don't believe a persons entire character should be judge on the basis on how freely they use these words cause maybe they really mean it :)
Up till now, I still stuggle with those words but it is getting easier. It's not a habit and I still say it in Chinese, but it does comes around once in a while in English :)
Another theory I have is that, the more we care about the person, the more we unconsioucly hurt them. Maybe knowing they Love us too makes us feel immune to their pain cause we can't imagine ourselves hurting them, can't accept the fact that we might have said and done something that is making them sad. When you feel tired and scared, you put on a protective front, don't want to back down, don't want to admit you hurt the person you love when in actual fact, all you need is to say "Sorry," and the person will forgive you :) This is my Theory, what do you think about it?
As a human, we worry a lot about people we care about. As a girl, sometimes we worry so much we tear up. As May, I should just try to worry less :) Sometimes, I worry so much about people that I can't sleep and figure out a few sleepless nights later that they're ok. So I should start worrying less about people.
I think the most important thing about saying those words are, saying them face to face. Not typing them down and sending it through sms to your parents and your love ones. It's easier I know, but it holds a special meaning if you can say the words out.
Mum, Dad and my dearest Sister, I Love you.
Though I know it's a cheat's way cause I just wrote an entire post about saying "I Love you," out loud ;D this is for everyone out there to know that even though we do not share the same thoughts all the time, I ♥-ed ♥-ving ♥-ve! my family! Until I can find the black hole that keeps all my courage to say this three little words out regularly, bear with my chinese way of saying it!
And this is to everyone out there who have a family member or someone that you have been waiting for all your life to say it too; Just say those words cause.. (read below the picture)
Here's a really beautiful description of Love
Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
those three little words that'll change my life
say it again say "I love you,"
say it today and tomorrow too
say it forever
say that you love me again . . .
This is part of a lyrics by a band, C21 titled "Say it again,"
All of us, have said this three little words before. To me, it's probably the hardest sentence to say, especially to someone I really care about. When I was so much younger, I would write on cards and paper that I love my parents, but somehow it was so much harder to say it outright. I would have to struggle saying them and my face will be flushed. I can't understand why. It's just my family, people that I really care about and Love so much more than anyone and anything in this World, but why do I find it easier to say to my friends and teachers and not my family members?
There's something magical about the word "I Love You." More often than not, I will say it in Chinese. It's so much more easier and I don't have to turn myself into a homegrown tomato. Maybe it's an Asian custom to find it so hard to say it to your parents and the people you love. In that way, I agree that the Western way of expressing themselves is so much better. They don't hesitate to say those three words as if it was just like every other words, but saying that, you can't help to wonder don't they abused it? Why is it so easy for them to say "I Love you," to someone they met just over an hour ago? What is their version of Love? Someone who is really beautiful? Someone they just want to have? or Someone they want to spend the rest of their life with?
I do believe in Love at first sight :) but to say "I love you," just after looking at that person for a few seconds, I don't think so. Sometimes, it gets me thinking, people who can use these words so freely to another person other than their family members, are they for real or are they superficial? It's hard to tell. I don't believe a persons entire character should be judge on the basis on how freely they use these words cause maybe they really mean it :)
Up till now, I still stuggle with those words but it is getting easier. It's not a habit and I still say it in Chinese, but it does comes around once in a while in English :)
Another theory I have is that, the more we care about the person, the more we unconsioucly hurt them. Maybe knowing they Love us too makes us feel immune to their pain cause we can't imagine ourselves hurting them, can't accept the fact that we might have said and done something that is making them sad. When you feel tired and scared, you put on a protective front, don't want to back down, don't want to admit you hurt the person you love when in actual fact, all you need is to say "Sorry," and the person will forgive you :) This is my Theory, what do you think about it?
As a human, we worry a lot about people we care about. As a girl, sometimes we worry so much we tear up. As May, I should just try to worry less :) Sometimes, I worry so much about people that I can't sleep and figure out a few sleepless nights later that they're ok. So I should start worrying less about people.
I think the most important thing about saying those words are, saying them face to face. Not typing them down and sending it through sms to your parents and your love ones. It's easier I know, but it holds a special meaning if you can say the words out.
Mum, Dad and my dearest Sister, I Love you.
Though I know it's a cheat's way cause I just wrote an entire post about saying "I Love you," out loud ;D this is for everyone out there to know that even though we do not share the same thoughts all the time, I ♥-ed ♥-ving ♥-ve! my family! Until I can find the black hole that keeps all my courage to say this three little words out regularly, bear with my chinese way of saying it!
And this is to everyone out there who have a family member or someone that you have been waiting for all your life to say it too; Just say those words cause.. (read below the picture)
Here's a really beautiful description of Love
Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
- Captain Corelli's Mandolin6. "Love is the beauty of the soul."
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This three little words can change your life :)
On the 28th of March 2009, building around the World off their light in show of support for the environment.
Since my sister and her friends were celebrating one of their friend's birthday in Sunway Pyramid, I decided to go along and check out Earth Day celebration. Hehe, I manage to dragged a friend along with me.
So there I was with Mei Yun catching up and basically just having a good time :)

Oo, if I had that body shape.. :) Nah, I like mine!

Mei Yun! OMG She straighten her hair :)

Pirates of the Carribean 4: Stranded on Sunway Pyramid island
It was a fun day, and I wore green in show of support for Earth day :)
But if you ask me what I really saw that night when the lights turn off. Publicity stunt.
All the hype, was to generate the perception that we are doing something for the Earth, when indeed we are doing nothing. I was still inside the supermarket when the well proclaimed Earth Hour at 8.30 sharp happened. I was looking around thinking the lights will be turned off but it didn't. As I was walking down the stairs, I was thinking, maybe our watch were fast since no lights has been turned off yet. But as we approached outside, we were surrounded by pitch darkness and the theme park was really dark; but honestly, the theme park seldom open until that late either. As we were walking, I was thinking, is this what they call turning off the lights? As we approached the main entrance, all we saw was only the lights outside were switch off giving the illusion that the entire building turned off their light but sadly, no.
I bumped into my juniors and asked them what happened outside and they told me they started singing and then the grand ceremony of turning off the lights happened. I was thinking then, wow, what a great publicity stunt to pull off. They had a mini concert outside and as I approached closer, I saw young teenage boys dancing. At first, I thought they were some college students, then seeing the way they danced, I thought, maybe nor, maybe secondary school. But I took a good look at them again, they look like teenagers with disabilities problem. Maybe slow learner. It's pretty shocking. I was smiling before, until I realize that, then it turned into horror. The kids didn't know what they were doing. They were just dancing up there. It was really horrid of them to put those kids up. I mean, if they were having fun it's one thing, but they look so lost themselves. Why couldn't they bring this kids and let them watch other people performed and allow them to have fun? I'm not asking you to treat them like a disable or saying that they are not good enough to perform cause, I watched disable kids perform before and I ♥ their performance especially when they looked like they are having loads and loads of fun! But looking at them, I felt really upset that this is what a company would resort too, for publicity stunts.
We left after a while and walked back into the supermarket. By the time we got out and were heading back home, it was almost 9.30. We passed the Lion heads but the lights hasn't 't been turned on, but we drove on, all the way home.
Back in PJ, when I turned into the lane of my house, it was pretty dark. Even my house was pretty dark. When I finally came down from the car and got a good look around, I saw that my parents and my neighbours have turned off the electricity in show of support for Earth Day. That's when I thought of an article by Bangsar Boy on New Year Day which wrote something like this "We all go out rubbing shoulders with strangers that we don't even know just to celebrate New Years Day when we have a family that we love and care about to celebrate New Years day with,"
You know, when I saw my parents did their part in their support of Earth Day, I felt so proud. So, so very proud. There I was in the middle of a gimmick a publicity stunt, where here my parents were, doing their part in a small way by turning off the lights we normally leave on just to do their bid to protect Earth. This is what every Malaysian and every person out there should do. If you really support the course, it's not heading to the shopping complex or gathering together with thousands of complete strangers to show your support, it's about being with the people you love and doing your part in saving the Earth. :)
Cheers
Since my sister and her friends were celebrating one of their friend's birthday in Sunway Pyramid, I decided to go along and check out Earth Day celebration. Hehe, I manage to dragged a friend along with me.
So there I was with Mei Yun catching up and basically just having a good time :)
Oo, if I had that body shape.. :) Nah, I like mine!
Mei Yun! OMG She straighten her hair :)
Pirates of the Carribean 4: Stranded on Sunway Pyramid island
It was a fun day, and I wore green in show of support for Earth day :)
But if you ask me what I really saw that night when the lights turn off. Publicity stunt.
All the hype, was to generate the perception that we are doing something for the Earth, when indeed we are doing nothing. I was still inside the supermarket when the well proclaimed Earth Hour at 8.30 sharp happened. I was looking around thinking the lights will be turned off but it didn't. As I was walking down the stairs, I was thinking, maybe our watch were fast since no lights has been turned off yet. But as we approached outside, we were surrounded by pitch darkness and the theme park was really dark; but honestly, the theme park seldom open until that late either. As we were walking, I was thinking, is this what they call turning off the lights? As we approached the main entrance, all we saw was only the lights outside were switch off giving the illusion that the entire building turned off their light but sadly, no.
I bumped into my juniors and asked them what happened outside and they told me they started singing and then the grand ceremony of turning off the lights happened. I was thinking then, wow, what a great publicity stunt to pull off. They had a mini concert outside and as I approached closer, I saw young teenage boys dancing. At first, I thought they were some college students, then seeing the way they danced, I thought, maybe nor, maybe secondary school. But I took a good look at them again, they look like teenagers with disabilities problem. Maybe slow learner. It's pretty shocking. I was smiling before, until I realize that, then it turned into horror. The kids didn't know what they were doing. They were just dancing up there. It was really horrid of them to put those kids up. I mean, if they were having fun it's one thing, but they look so lost themselves. Why couldn't they bring this kids and let them watch other people performed and allow them to have fun? I'm not asking you to treat them like a disable or saying that they are not good enough to perform cause, I watched disable kids perform before and I ♥ their performance especially when they looked like they are having loads and loads of fun! But looking at them, I felt really upset that this is what a company would resort too, for publicity stunts.
We left after a while and walked back into the supermarket. By the time we got out and were heading back home, it was almost 9.30. We passed the Lion heads but the lights hasn't 't been turned on, but we drove on, all the way home.
Back in PJ, when I turned into the lane of my house, it was pretty dark. Even my house was pretty dark. When I finally came down from the car and got a good look around, I saw that my parents and my neighbours have turned off the electricity in show of support for Earth Day. That's when I thought of an article by Bangsar Boy on New Year Day which wrote something like this "We all go out rubbing shoulders with strangers that we don't even know just to celebrate New Years Day when we have a family that we love and care about to celebrate New Years day with,"
You know, when I saw my parents did their part in their support of Earth Day, I felt so proud. So, so very proud. There I was in the middle of a gimmick a publicity stunt, where here my parents were, doing their part in a small way by turning off the lights we normally leave on just to do their bid to protect Earth. This is what every Malaysian and every person out there should do. If you really support the course, it's not heading to the shopping complex or gathering together with thousands of complete strangers to show your support, it's about being with the people you love and doing your part in saving the Earth. :)
Cheers
I set my foot down on the place I left 2 years back. As I walked in the feeling of familiarity and warmth of meeting a old friend overwhelmed me. I was back once again, in Assunta.
The security guard still remember me :) Maybe all those years of talking to her while waiting for my parents and performing my duties as a LEO, Sewo, Guides and Rangers really adds to her memories. It's great to be walking into school and having someone knowing you.
I went to the staffroom and ask Miss Ho to help me certified my certs. And while I was waiting for her, I saw a few teachers! They remember me like I was still in school! And remember Puan Sabina! She came to me and hug me :) Haha, Assunta brought back the Rafidah throphy this year! And the sweetest thing she said to me was "I told them about your speech and how it touch people hearts," and for the Original Oratory category, they manage to get a bronze! Haha, hearing her say that makes me miss going for forensics! The feeling of being in the finals and knowing that you are one of the best is Amazing! (Of course seeing cute guys too XD With curly hair (Hey Ting! tsk tsk) and hearing the absolutely brilliant speech of the ISKL guys! ) So kudos to those who make it to the finals!
And I can't believe I still recognized so many faces! Juniors who I talked too and taught are all still there! And they were taking a second glance at me. I went back there in Jeans and loose hair plus I curled them too, so I guess they were wondering whether it's me and when I looked back at them, they start waving :)
Puan Prema, our English teacher! Haha, she supported my dreams of heading of to medicine! It was a really good feeling! And Puan Sabina too! And Mrs Toh! She's still really scary, but she came over to talk to me and even gave me a website to check out! Miss Jaya is still as pretty as ever! And Encik Mustafa! Haha!
I miss Assunta :)
The security guard still remember me :) Maybe all those years of talking to her while waiting for my parents and performing my duties as a LEO, Sewo, Guides and Rangers really adds to her memories. It's great to be walking into school and having someone knowing you.
I went to the staffroom and ask Miss Ho to help me certified my certs. And while I was waiting for her, I saw a few teachers! They remember me like I was still in school! And remember Puan Sabina! She came to me and hug me :) Haha, Assunta brought back the Rafidah throphy this year! And the sweetest thing she said to me was "I told them about your speech and how it touch people hearts," and for the Original Oratory category, they manage to get a bronze! Haha, hearing her say that makes me miss going for forensics! The feeling of being in the finals and knowing that you are one of the best is Amazing! (Of course seeing cute guys too XD With curly hair (Hey Ting! tsk tsk) and hearing the absolutely brilliant speech of the ISKL guys! ) So kudos to those who make it to the finals!
And I can't believe I still recognized so many faces! Juniors who I talked too and taught are all still there! And they were taking a second glance at me. I went back there in Jeans and loose hair plus I curled them too, so I guess they were wondering whether it's me and when I looked back at them, they start waving :)
Puan Prema, our English teacher! Haha, she supported my dreams of heading of to medicine! It was a really good feeling! And Puan Sabina too! And Mrs Toh! She's still really scary, but she came over to talk to me and even gave me a website to check out! Miss Jaya is still as pretty as ever! And Encik Mustafa! Haha!
I miss Assunta :)
I didn't think of blogging about it since
A) Reading today's paper and seeing that SPM results will be out in 2 weeks really send an alarm trigger running through me
B) I didn't bring my camera
C) Everyone else update is pretty complete
But I decided too, for Coco :)
I'm not over praising or being nice, but really, MYC did a awesome job with the preparation towards his birthday! The most brilliant thing, besides contacting his friends were of course calling all of us and telling us about his TTM moments! :) I was already sleeping the night his birthday when MYC called me and started telling me about him, I went from daze to giggling non-stop :) But, honestly, I really think he was sweet to want to celebrate with us and leaving the whole day just for us Science 1. Lol, and even wanting to work on his birthday so he can spend the next day with all of us.
Vincent, soweee.. I know I kinda conned you on the phone about going to my friends house, but haha, I wasn't exactly lying to you, is just that I didn't say it was who, and Veron is Assutarian :)
Seriously, Chae Yin and Jess were having loads of fun with me laughing at you! Hahaha, we were laughing in the car all the way to your house and also when we were shopping for your present :)

Family of Science 1. We're missing two sisters :) Ky and Wt

We were supposed to freezing :) Myc has a scarf , Jess a cap and i'm in a three quarter coat

So cuddly.. <3

TGIF Fridays :)
And if you're wondering who's this Coco i'm talking about, it's~
*Drumrolls*

Coco~ <3
A) Reading today's paper and seeing that SPM results will be out in 2 weeks really send an alarm trigger running through me
B) I didn't bring my camera
C) Everyone else update is pretty complete
But I decided too, for Coco :)
I'm not over praising or being nice, but really, MYC did a awesome job with the preparation towards his birthday! The most brilliant thing, besides contacting his friends were of course calling all of us and telling us about his TTM moments! :) I was already sleeping the night his birthday when MYC called me and started telling me about him, I went from daze to giggling non-stop :) But, honestly, I really think he was sweet to want to celebrate with us and leaving the whole day just for us Science 1. Lol, and even wanting to work on his birthday so he can spend the next day with all of us.
Vincent, soweee.. I know I kinda conned you on the phone about going to my friends house, but haha, I wasn't exactly lying to you, is just that I didn't say it was who, and Veron is Assutarian :)
Seriously, Chae Yin and Jess were having loads of fun with me laughing at you! Hahaha, we were laughing in the car all the way to your house and also when we were shopping for your present :)
Family of Science 1. We're missing two sisters :) Ky and Wt
We were supposed to freezing :) Myc has a scarf , Jess a cap and i'm in a three quarter coat
So cuddly.. <3
TGIF Fridays :)
And if you're wondering who's this Coco i'm talking about, it's~
*Drumrolls*
Coco~ <3





